all I did today was laundry and try to get an auto e-mail to go out and I failed at both of them.
I realize I probably need water and a nap but my brain is telling me I'm a useless failure who doesn't deserve those things.
my brain is not good.
I'm realizing that I have a bunch of unaddressed capital t Trauma and that means I need to take a step back
like, you know, maybe isolation reminds me of my ex and the general "ehhh" that people have about any sort of hangs (even virtual, sometimes) feels like repeated rejection and all I can remember is my ex telling me he was embarrassed to be seen with me in public
and is society melting down? yeah, but animal brain is selfish.
FR : Ceci est une instance queer, qui vise à être aussi confortable et safe que possible. Nouvelleaux élèves bienvenu'es !